This morning I went for a walk and had a small breakdown. Tears finally came, but thank goodness for mixed playlists on Ipods! Some of the songs on my Ipod, which ironically I just downloaded the week before this happened, were Bless the Broken Road, My Little Girl, It's Your Love, Let It Go and Swing. Thank God for that last one it brought me out of the land of tears. I started thinking about losing my little girl. What would I do? What have I done wrong? Am I a bad person? What can I do to make it right? All these thoughts just flooded my head and I am left with no answers. Very frustrating!
Today we will get answers though. I am nervous about what they are going to say. Scared that whatever they do will not work. I'm just so damned scared!!!
Please keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers today and everyday! I'll be updating later this afternoon with the results.
13 hours ago