Up, up, down, up

That is Summer's fever. Last night it got up to 103.9, auxiliary. Yesterday it was mostly between 101 and 102.8 every time we took it. Once during the night and this morning it got down to 98.?. The Tylenol usually doesn't get it that low in between doses though. Maybe more like 100.?. Anyways, those are just numbers. The fact is she is still fevering. She has been on two antibiotics every 8 hours since yesterday morning - Cefepime & Clindamycin. The Cefe is our "normal" fever antibiotic. She has been mostly sleeping and is currently doing just that. I am laying in bed beside her listening to the Barney movie in the background. I thought she was going to watch it, but I guess she is not feeling good and her body wants to sleep.

She is getting blood and platelets today. I'm not sure what her counts are, but I'm sure they are low since she needs those two things. It should be a pretty busy day at the IV pump for us. Good thing all she has to do is lay here.

When we got to our room yesterday (around 4:45 p.m. We got to clinic at 8:30 a.m.....), there was a Anne Geddes Baby Bunny on her pillow waiting for her. It is so precious. It slept in the bed with us last night. Of course, Summer didn't give up Teddy. He is always her snuggle buddy. She did cuddle the bunny baby for a few minutes in the middle of the night, but then she wanted to cuddle me. Aaawwww. LOVE THOSE MOMENTS! She also rubbed my hand and told me I was "so soft." She told me she loved me. Just out of the blue in the middle of the night after a trip to the potty. I even got a hug and kiss on one of the trips. All of these things unasked for, but SOOOO wanted and needed. They are the ones that mean the most. You know, when you don't have to ask but they are offered freely. Unconditional love. I recall a blog post that I wrote 3 years ago on the same subject. Feel free to take a trip back to when I was a new mom and read it. Wow, how time flies, but that love still remains. Now even stronger due to cancer, a blessing & curse. Wait! Did I just say that? A blessing? Although I would never in a million years want to repeat receiving that awful news (no, not AGAIN), I have realized some things I don't think I would've otherwise. Life is so fragile, so unpredictable. If you aren't doing the things you have always wanted to do in life now, when will you? What are you waiting for? Who knows how many more days any of us have? So now, more than ever, I am LIVING my life. I'm not waiting. I try to experience as many things as I can. This cancer has slowed us down a bit, but hopefully that will only be temporary. We should probably be on mostly "house arrest" for the next few months to keep Summer as safe as possible until her treatments are finished. But, after that, when she is feeling healthy again, we will be off to live the adventure we deserve. After all, life is an adventure and you only live once.


P.S. Her weight was 30.9 lbs. yesterday. Not too bad, but she isn't eating much now. Darn mouth sores!