Time is going by so slow...

Well, it seems like time is just crawling by since I have found out I am pregnant.  It has only been two weeks, and I am already dying to know what I am going to have.  I have been looking at a test that you can order off of the Internet that will tell you what you what you are going to have based on the baby DNA floating in your blood.  My husband vetoed the test, so I guess I will have to wait a few months to find out.  I looked at the Chinese calendar, and it predicts we will have a boy.  We'll see.  My husband isn't buying into it even though it did correctly predict what my sister, best friend and her sister would all have.  I have already begun brainstorming possible names.  My husband and I have found it easier to pick girl names...not sure why.  We just can't seem to agree on any boy names.  The one boy name we both like, at least for now, is Phoenix.  My husband did pick out a very unusual name for a boy - "Classic".  I'm not sure if he is really serious, but he keeps bringing it up.  I think he got the idea from the girl name I picked out - Caprice.  He said it reminds him of a car.  Anyways, I'm sure we will come up with many more names between now and then.  We still have a long way to go.  I have my first doctor visit next week and am very excited about that. 

Clint's Touching Words - 9/18

Yesterday morning my husband and I were lying in the bed.  We were talking and he said something that almost made me cry.  Out of nowhere he said, "I love the baby already."  This might not seem like a big deal to some people, but to me it was one of those "priceless" moments.  A week ago, he was nervous and asking, "Are you sure?"  Now, it seems like the nervousness is fading and being replaced with excitement.  I was very nervous last week, too.  This week, I have let go of some of the paranoia (notice I said some) and am getting more excited.  I am still worried about the baby and whether or not I am going to lose it.  I know I can't dwell on it; I don't want to.  Hopefully, as each day goes by I will become more and more relaxed.  We'll see...

Telling Amanda

My husband, Clint, wanted his daughter, Amanda, to be the first to know. She is in a boarding school right now, so we had to call and get special permission to talk to her outside of our regular call time. Clint was very determined to tell her before anyone else knew. We were on our way to have lunch with my best friend, Selena. I had talked to her the night before and told her I was going to take a pregnancy test when I woke up the next morning. I knew she would ask about the results, so we were trying to get in touch with Amanda before we met up with Selena and her husband. We arrived at the restaurant and were waiting for our friends and a call from the school. As soon as my friends arrived, we received a call from the boarding school. It must have been our lucky day! We told our friends we would meet them inside and went back to the car to talk to Amanda. Clint was very emotional throughout the phone call, as were Amanda and myself. Amanda was excited, but also disappointed because she is not here with us right now. After the call, we went into the restaurant and sat down with our friends. The first thing Selena asked was, "Have you taken any tests lately?" I nodded and smiled. She knew what that meant and had to fight back tears. She is having her first baby in 7 weeks, and I am not too far behind her. Wow!!!

The Day I Found Out - 9/12

The night before I took the home pregnancy test, I had three dreams of positive pregnancy tests!  I woke up thinking it was going to be negative because of all the dreams I had that night.  I got up and took the test anyway.  I remember looking at the positive test in disbelief and then realizing how hard my heart was pounding.  I went back to bed and asked my husband if he could feel my heart beating.  He asked me, "Why?"  I responded only with eyes full of tears.  We laid there together just letting it all sink in.